colder than my heart, if you could imagine..

sometimes i wonder, will i ever learn. i take you back everytime without a second thought, and every single time you go back to her. you say that it isn't fair to treat her that way, to tell her that she has a second chance and then leave her. isn't that what you did to me? you contradict yourself when you say that, and you don't even realize it. you say that this is the last straw for her. this is the last chance you will give her, but you say that every time. its getting hard to trust the one person i thought i would always trust. the person i thought would always have my back. i guess i was wrong. if this is her last straw, then maybe your last straw already passed. it passed the first time you said you loved me, and the second time. i can't keep waiting around, taking you when you're in a bad place and when you feel better you just go to her again. i'm not your rebound, or something you can just use when you feel like. i just don't know what to do about it..